That’s going to be the title of the book I can only assume my year will become. That or “Unintended Mid-Life Crisis”. And it will be a comedy… Because I often just have to laugh at how ridiculous the current state of my life is. And it will be a romance… About falling in love with LIFE!
What exactly is an unintended mid-life crisis? Thanks for asking! Well considering that a mid-life crisis is: An emotional crisis of identity and self-confidence that can occur in early middle age, we can deduct that an UNINTENDED mid-life crisis happens when circumstances beyond your control force you to re-evaluate your own identity and rebuild your self-confidence. Allow me to present to you the factors that have forced me to do so as I stare down the barrel of 40.
- For the first time in 15 years I have my own place, as my husband and I are living in separate houses. At first this was a lonely, sad space, but I have transformed it into a simple haven for healing and dreaming and praying… And dancing in the kitchen to the new Hollyn album, since no one is around to witness my lack of rhythm.
- For the first time in 11 years I am job hunting because… it’s complicated. So I’m churning out resumes for every job imaginable, from copywriter to events coordinator. But finding time for my side hustles – coaching, content writing and social media specializing (yup, that’s a thing)!
- For the first time in 7 years I am NOT training for a triathlon, and therefore not spending the winter riding my trainer in the basement! Thank the good Lord I’m not signed up for a triathlon because I do not have the time that I insist on putting into training. And also… My hip is an a-hole and anything that requires hip flexion results in what I refer to as a temper-tantrum of the hip joint. So sadly riding is out indefinitely.
Also interesting to note…
- For the first time in my life I have committed to a vegetarian diet. Meat is too damn expensive for someone who needs to save every penny possible. And actually I feel SO much healthier now that I’ve cut it out of my diet. After three days I noticed that my stomach had calmed down, and I just felt less inflamed really! No meat + no gluten = Healthy Sara! It’s not for everyone, but it’s what my body and wallet need right now!
And so, thanks to what I initially considered a relationship tragedy, combined with a hip injury that finally caught up to me (thanks labral tear), I am on my own, starting over in many ways, terrified, and just a smidge excited! This my friends is the beauty of being thrust into major life shifts that are hardly your idea.
I suspect that as painful as this process is, it is exactly what I needed. And since God is the author of this romantic comedy, He knew I wouldn’t up and start unfolding this plot on my own, so He gave me the push I needed. In some undefined way I know exactly how this story plays out. And I know that it’s a story about falling in love with life!
So the question is… What would it take for YOU to be in love with your life?! And are you going to take that first step to living a life you love, or wait to be thrust into an unintended mid-life crisis?!